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Letter from an American womyn in dystopia.

Letter from an American womyn in dystopia.

My dear sister, it is some years since last I heard from you now. I am worried, my dear. There you are, far away, outside the loving
Elephants in the Room (and Crocodiles)

Elephants in the Room (and Crocodiles)

They’re the elephants in the room, where relations between transwomen and men are concerned.Almost without exception, the assertion
The ideal partner for an HSTS transwoman?

The ideal partner for an HSTS transwoman?

The fact is that the HSTS transwoman’s dream–of finding a young, fit, handsome, financially secure, STRAIGHT Mr Right, who will
Sex and HSTS: by Guest Author Amanda Grimes

Sex and HSTS: by Guest Author Amanda Grimes

I am an MtF Homosexual Transsexual (HSTS), who, having socially transitioned just after my 23rd birthday, some 30 years ago, underwent Sex
Ley-lines: how an English Gent launched the New Age movement

Ley-lines: how an English Gent launched the New Age movement

Ley-lines were invented by an Englishman called Alfred Watkins, who had spent much time cycling around the  countryside near his home. In
Grip: How to hold the fiddle and bow

Grip: How to hold the fiddle and bow

Once you have the grip of the instrument under the chin sorted out, the next thing to address is the right hand’s grip on the bow.
Social Autogynephilia and Schadenfreude.

Social Autogynephilia and Schadenfreude.

Autogynephilia is ‘a man’s propensity to be sexually aroused at the thought or image of himself as a woman’. For many practical
Gynocracy, the feminist collective, will fail

Gynocracy, the feminist collective, will fail

Why is it that matriarchy, which is so successful at the micro-social scale, as we see in traditional communities across the world, is not
God proposition: god true or god false?

God proposition: god true or god false?

The god proposition is supported not by fact, but by faith. At the end of the day, the final word that the religiously-disposed have is to
Gynandromorphophilia: love of transwomen

Gynandromorphophilia: love of transwomen

Attraction to transwomen is called  gynandromorphophilia. But there are at least two forms: autogynephilic and bisexual. In the West,
Why women invented marriage

Why women invented marriage

Marriage is a puzzle. Why does it exist at all?Humans are a peculiar species, because it takes so long for our children to reach sexual
Peg Replacement on a Fiddle or Violin

Peg Replacement on a Fiddle or Violin

To replace a peg, you’ll need the right tools.Some of these are  specialised, and can be expensive, but even after just one set of

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  1. I think I just lost a rather lengthy post. I am acquainted with many of the facts and findings you cite. I will try to summarize briefly the remarks that I lost. I am a 68-year-old retired general surgeon currently working part time as a medical researcher. I am autogynephilic and divorced after35 years of marriage. I believe my condition has many causes: toxic exposure to DES, DDT, and lead in utero, cross-dressing as a teen associated with arousal and masturbation, which I stopped after two years and did not resume in earnest until the death of my mother in 2002 and a distancing from me by my wife related to financial difficulties related neurological disabilities due to a mid-brain bleed due a tiny AV malformation. I developed acute hydrocephalus requiring emergency placement of a ventriculo-peritoneal shunt, leading to chronic drowsiness and decreased executive function and closure of my surgical practice I also have sleep apnea, testosterone, and estrogen deficiency associated with osteoporosis which requires estrogen but cannot be treated with testosterone because it makes the sleep apnea worse, causes cystic acne, and makes my BPH worse. I believe some of these conditions may have been related to hormone disruptor exposure in utero. In 2002 I developed incessant OCD-like urges to cross-dress which were accompanied with arousal and often masturbation. I eventually found that St. John’s Wort, Vyvanse, and Luvox eliminated these urges entirely but proved toxic and had to be discontinued due development of the serotonin syndrome and a mild, transiently symptomatic stroke. Cross-dressing served as a substitute for Vyvanse, Luvox, and St. John’s Wort, that allowed me to work part time as a medical researcher. I still see my wife and children but do not cross-dress in their presence nor do I cross-dress publically. I recognize its repugnance to the general population, to heterosexual women, and especially to wives and children. I did contemplate suicide but was persuaded to believe that a live cross-dresser, even an autogynephilic one, is better than a dead one–although I see from your postings that you and others may disagree with that. Using self-gratifying substances and carrying out self-gratifying behaviors are not always heinous addictions that necessarily injure the lives of self and others. Narcotic use even associated with tolerance and high doses can be lifesaving in persons with severe chronic pain. Amphetamine use can save the lives of some individuals with severe ADD. SRS can be lifesaving for many homosexual transsexuals. Anti-depressants can be lifesaving for persons with otherwise untreatable deficiencies of dopamine, serotonin, and/or norepinephrine. I agree that autogynephilic males will always be males with male brains despite hormones and SRS. I have noted as you have that because many transition late in life, many have a repugnant appearance that is difficult to accept both by the affected individual and those around him. Their behavior is often narcissistic and highly dysfunctional. However, I would also argue that no matter how these individuals got this way, their condition is not easily or possibly impossible to reverse. Some degree of tolerance/acceptance of their behavior and varying and individualized degrees of treatment, I think, are better for them, their families, and society than execution, suicide, corporal punishment, or imprisonment unless they are truly guilty of felonies. The same I believe is especially true for homosexual transsexuals whose gender identity has been in some cases brutally suppressed for years and find peace in late transition. I also believe that unnuanced vitriol toward dysfunctional even narcissistic individuals is not helpful. I found hardened heroin addicts with gunshot wounds difficult to treat as a surgeon. But they, too, needed to be treated as fellow human beings even though some needed 24-hour police attendants and physical restraints. Some now believe–in Canada– that what they need is carefully supervised heroin administration with strict requirements for treatment including having a job. What autogynephilic MTFs “should” do and what they can do may be different. What we “ought” to expect needs to coincide with attitudes that are both understanding and reasonable.

    1. Hi James,

      Thank you for your posts. For some reason these were held in my spam folder (it’s automated) pending manual review. I have now passed them. My apologies for the confusion.

      I try to check comments twice a day so if that happens again, please wait a while. Your posts will not be lost and I will OK them on my next check.

      I’ll respond after reading, this was just to reassure you

      Kind Regards

      Rod

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