As so many of you must know by now, for the past year I have been romantically attached to Sam Villasencio, also known as Samantha Nicole Mendez. It’s not always been the easiest of relationships but we found, through our adversities, the real strength of our love. I know that proposing was the right thing to do but I put it off for a few months even after my mind was made up. There were many reasons for this, not all good, but not all bad either. But in the end I realised that it was something I wanted to do and that my motives were sound.
Although I am not really superstitious I wanted the most propitious circumstances. After all, this is Asia and Sam is Two-Spirited, with much power in the unseen world. So I wanted to give her a ring and do it properly.
So on St Valentines’s Day, we had a party for some friends and then I got on my knees and asked her. She said ‘yes’. Fortunately.
We don’t know quite when or how the actual marriage ceremony will take place. Sam’s a Catholic, I’m Church of Scotland — and perhaps more to the point, she’s a transwoman. I will keep you all posted but meantime keep an eye on my YouTube Channel
Transition desire, which is Gender Dysphoria if the condition becomes clinical, is defined into four separate types: male homosexual, female homosexual, male nonhomosexual and female nonhomosexual.
Homosexual transition desire
The stimulus for the homosexual form appears to be, on a significant amount of evidence, a form of Sexual Inversion caused by anomalies in the hormone (principally testosterone) delivery system to the developing baby in utero.
This causes numerous effects including more or less marked shifts towards opposite-sex characteristics in a range of areas, including body morphology but also, crucially, sexuality, such that males have female sexuality and females have male sexuality.
Nonhomosexual transition desire
Until recently, only the male form had been observed widely enough to have attracted scientific notice. However, in recent years we have seen an upsurge in female non-homosexual referrals to gender clinics.
The male form is caused by Autogynephilia (AGP), ‘a man’s propensity to become aroused at the thought or image of himself as a woman.’ At the moment, the term ‘Autoandrophilia (AAP)’ has come into use to describe the female form, but no agreed definition has yet been arrived at. On the surface, while it appears to have significant parallels with AGP, AAP also differs greatly, notably in its social contexts.
HSTS is famously long in development. Children with it will typically begin to exhibit Gender Non Conforming behaviour in their early years, even as young as two. They will be same-sex oriented (crushing on the same sex) and cross-sex identified, from around this time. The more insistent and persistent they are, the greater the likelihood that they will transition after puberty.
AGP can often appear to set on suddenly but this is questionable. Many with it claim that it set on around puberty and they have been struggling with it ever since. The DSM, which calls this form ‘late onset gender dysphoria’ suggests that it does not appear before age nine, which conveniently matches with the earliest that puberty occurs in boys. We can therefore say that AGP does not appear prior to puberty, though it may appear at that time.
Rapid Onset Gender Dysphoria (ROGD) is an even more recently-observed phenomenon that affects principally females. In it, young women ‘discover’ they are gender dysphoric over a short time, typically a few weeks to a few months, and immediately pursue Gender Reassignment Therapy. LIke AGP, it never appears before puberty and so far it seems to be most common in the mid teens to early twenties age range.
There is still some debate, but opinion seems to be crystallising that ROGD in females is just AAP, while in males it is AGP. It is not associated with homosexuality, although subjects may become pseudo-bisexual as a function of the condition. Therefore we can reasonable isolate it as a nonhomosexual form.
Desistance is the buzz word these days. Everybody’s doing it. They think they’re trans, they get the surgeries and then a few years later, woops we made a foopie. And then they have to get it all put back. One recent YouTube video was from a transman — thirteen different surgeries, no end of complications and some remedies that would make your eyes water –and then, 12 years later, desistance time. So, transsexual surgery, aka Genital Reconstruction Surgery or GRS, must be a waste of time, no? I mean if desistance is what happens?
But this is a falsehood. I explain in depth in the video, but the fact is that the overwhelming demand for desistance comes from non-homosexual transitioners, that is, autogynephilic males and autoandrophilic females.
The demand for desistance is NOT coming from genuine transsexuals, otherwise known as HSTS. These are sexual inverts for whom full transition is the logical and proper conclusion. It is fully indicated for them, since Sexual Inversion, as far as we know, is effectively a form of intersex resulting from improper testosterone delivery in the womb. Give a boy too little and he’ll be feminised, give a girl too much and she’ll be masculinised. In the more severely affected cases, full transition is indicated and desistance is simply not a problem.
Once again, though, transactivists harm true transsexuals (HSTS) by insisting that they are fundamentally the same as AGP/AAP non-homosexual types, which they are not. This is making professionals less keen to perform necessary surgeries in case there is a later desistance issue. They fear being sued for improper surgeries and lack of due care. But if they were to understand that homosexual transsexuals and non-homosexual transitioners were completely different phenomena, therapy decisions would be much easier, with far less risk of desistance.
HSTS are disproportionally harmed because of this since, especially for males, they need to transition young, before adult testosterone ruins their chances of passing as women.
It is rarely, if ever, advisable for non-homosexual transitioners to be approved for GRS. The risk of desistance is too high. For true transsexuals, HSTS, however, GRS can literally be a life-saver that may allow them to lead completely normal lives in the gender that their inverted sexuality demands.
Non-homosexual transitioners suffer from a narcissistic mental condition that leads them to become attached to the idea of themselves as members of the opposite sex. In males this is called autogynephilia and in females autoandrophilia. These are highly complicated and multi-faceted conditions; we know a great deal about the former and almost none about the latter, because it was not recognised in the literature until recently.
Autogynephilia is defined as ‘a man’s propensity to be aroused by the thought or image of himself as a woman’. It is a paraphilia or mental disorder which afflicts heterosexual men. It is typified by a range of behaviours through which the subject gains sexualised or directly sexual gratification from behaviours that he considers ‘womanly’. These can range from cross-dressed masturbation to knitting to wearing typically female clothing under masculine work clothes.
Autogynephilia bears no relationship whatsoever to True Transsexualism or HomoSexual TransSexualism (HSTS) which is the natural end-point of Sexual Inversion, in which a subject of one sex has the sexuality normally associated with the other. Since Gender and Sexuality are normally inseparable, such individuals, given an appropriate social climate, may transition and indeed, probably should do so. Autogynephilia, however, is not a sexuality but a paraphilia. Victims remain heterosexual men and their sexuality is male. This means that transition is unlikely to provide long-lasting relief.
It is not known how many men are afflicted with autogynephilia. This is partly because of the complexity of the condition and the variety of ways through which it cn be expressed. Autogynephilia comes in four or five basic forms, depending on which authority is being quoted. These are behavioural, anatomic, transvestic and physiological. The fifth, when it is used is inter-personal, but many observers feel that this is already contained within the behavioural category. These forms can appear alone but more commonly, the subject exhibits several at once.
Autogynephilia is uniquely experienced by heterosexual men and appears at or after puberty, though it can have a very long latency period, often being suppressed for decades. It has three sexual variations: heterosexual, in which the subject is attracted to women; pseudo-bisexual, in which the subject experiments with sex as a woman — including sex with men; and analloerotic or ‘asexual’ in which the subject does not have sex with other people. (Asexual is misleading here because the subject is usually having plenty of sex, it’s just that it’s solo.)
In the West, until recently, overt autogynephilia was principally exhibited by middle-aged men who tended to be married and have had socially normative lives. The appearance of the disorder, in these cases, often causes massive familial upheaval. It frequently results in divorce, loss of family, loss of career, loss of status and, not uncommonly, bankruptcy. Less commonly but even more sadly. suicidality, especially post-transition, increases.
So is there a cure for this debilitating condition? This video discusses the matter.
This video is about the potential pitfalls facing older men who decide to get married to young Asian girls. There is no need to do this and you should not. There are plenty of other ways to get sex. You can just pay for it on an as-required basis or you can just hire a maid and service provider for a very modest sum. Or you could find a sweet ladyboy, with whom the pressure will be much less — and the sex will be just as good. But marriage, especially to teenage Asian girls, implies a whole lot of other things that you should consider very deeply.
I’m slowly copying all my videos from YouTube and the other platforms I have and self-hosting them. This may take some time!
If you don’t know what the inside of one of those gateways to Heaven, otherwise known as a ladyboy bar, is really like, I hope this little video will help you visualise the legions of loveliness that populate them. I found the video a few years ago and decided to re-edit it to Billy Idol’s ‘Rebel Yell’. It’s an all-time favourite and frankly, is far more in tune with the passionate yelps of a toothsome young transgirl in bed than the music the video originally had!
You’ll need a ‘guest-friendly’ hotel, if you don’t use one of the ubiquitous short-time hotels which are, by definition, open to customers bringing along a girl or three. Although generally, budget hotels are fine, it’s probably better to avoid those run by farangs. I have to say, with regret, that the only time I’ve ever had any real issues with ladyboys in bars, restos or hotels in southeast Asia, it has been in establishments run by that species of bigoted Australian male who would, frankly, have been better left as a stain on his mother’s bedsheets.
Here’s the first of our video diaries from the Philippines to be uploaded here. Future videos from all of my channels and playlists will be backed up here because I no longer trust YouTube! Crazy world we live in.
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